After two hours of math class, I fell asleep on the car and slept for a wonderful 3 hours, waking up at around 9:30 when my dad came home. – -X Because of this, I am rushing to get my homework done as I am unusually tired. Or.. more so than usual. I found a funny picture online, and I decided to share it. Hehe… Pardon my laziness. It’s just sleep is so much more alluring. :3
I first found this picture when I was thinking of something to do for Ceramics, and my first reaction, obviously was AWWW… They’re so cuuuute~ Happy family!!!
And they are. :] Though the mother owl is especially white and bushy and there is a big color contrast, this is natural, isn’t it? I mean, mice and all the other furry animals start out as a pink quivering ball. Quite different from how they grow up to be. Looking different is natural. Well, guess what. After closer inspection of the website where I found the picture, it turns out that the mother owl is actually… a fur… stuffed animal. -_-# Yes, if look at it closely, doesn’t it look just a little extra dazed and stiff? With eyes like this —> o____o staring off into space?
So just how did they end up with this mommy-look-a-like? Well, apparently, the little baby owls waddled off somewhere and got lost. Some animal managers picked them up as they were facing starvation and brought them to the park.
Though I find it hilarious that the baby owls cannot tell a stuffed animal apart from their swooping, glaring mom, it is kind of sad at the same time. Very sad actually. ;____;
[Well, so much for owls being wise]. I wonder when they will finally realize that mommy owl isn’t who they think she is.
So today was pretty interesting. Most of the adventure took place during my run and around night-ish, but I guess I have done some things today worth mentioning. In the morning, I was making copies of the answer sheet for a practice SAT Test that I was going to take, and my printer was being a real lousy companion and did not cooperate at all. Pulling in and copying on one paper when I put in one and five when I put in five, my printer seriously pissed me off. I had to keep pulling out the paper tray and sticking paper in, only to watch it suck everything in, get jammed in the middle because there’s too much paper or occasionally come out ok.
In the middle of my copying I got so frustrated that I punched my printer with my right hand. Well, if I didn’t get anything else from the experience, I learned that punching things, while it is a release of emotion, does not help you feel better at all. Because after you have hit the object, you not only did not resolve the problem, but also have injured and throbbing knuckles to worry about. I managed to scrape off a nice thick layer of skin and it hurt as I was writing my essay. T__T
Oh, and I took a SAT test today. Didn’t do so well because my mind kept drifting off to other things and the critical reading section was really long.
After my wonderful test, I turned on the tv and started watching spanish channels for homework, and after what seemed like an eternity of clicking, found myself watching Babe goes to the city or whatever in Spanish. – -X Very fun.
Because of daylight savings, I went out to run a lot earlier [2 hours in fact] than when I ran before. Around 4-ish. I didn’t know where I wanted to run to, and after I closed my gate, realized that I forgot my watch. Eventually, I decided to measure my running by how many songs I listened to, and since there’s a lot that happened today, listing would perhaps be more efficient.
So during my run, I…
- was barked at by a bunch of dogs
- saw four different colored cats lounging on a porch
- visited Cloverly, the Library and Joanna
- saw one TC graduate and TC friend
- saw my mom driving home from chinese school [she didn't notice me lol]
- ran the distance of eleven songs– around forty minutes
It was pretty cool, cold I mean. Ha..ha it’s a pun [boy I feel lame]. Anyway, I’ve been procrastinating so much on essays, homework and sats that it’s disgusting. Must get to workkkkk. And I finally finished one drawing though everyone thinks its a girl [gahhhhhhhh!!!] Nehhhhh…. He looks like a guy to me. Whatevs. Today was fun– kind of eventful. Time to go work/sleep now.
Bibis
I am indignant.
Why, how, and for what you may be wondering. It must be something pretty big if I would ditch my homework the day before league finals to holler about it. Well, it’s this. I just looked online at the SAT score report of my October scores, and… and… GAH. I feel the extreme urge to.. well, you don’t need to know. But it’s something pretty evile.
Soo basically, I got a 710 for my writing section. [It's my best score, so dont even start telling me i'm overreacting] I got a 9 on my essay, and was pretty disappointed to be honest. I felt like I did pretty well, yeah? My score stung. So today, as I was checking out what sections I missed, on what, etc. etc. I happened to catch something. It turned out– that I only missed 3 FREAKING QUESTIONS for the WHOLE WRITING SECTION OMFGGG [COLLEGEBOARD DIE] pardon my venting, but you know… 710. T T 3 questions…That doesn’t quite stack up.
Well, anyway. Another disappointer was when my dad came home and I showed him my entree for the Reflections contest.
My photo was one I took last Track Season at West Covina High School, and when he saw it, he was like… dont even bother turning it in. No individuality. No style. Waste of time. T T Gee, that makes me feel soo much better. Sigh.. back to homework.
Yesterday, I found myself feeling abominably old and boring as I sat in front of my computer trying to do homework. There were, of course, no trick or treaters that came to my house, and after nine years of the same result, I suppose I should have gotten used to it by now. [Gosh it's been nine years. o_0 Holy fudgenicks] Sadly, I haven’t, and I still feel the urge to don a costume and become a kid again. Sigh.
A couple of my friends went celebrating at Knotts Berrry Farm, a group of others had a sleepover and a Movie spree, and some talked about dressing up as the Harry Potter trio. I guess I felt the sting of not doing anything in celebration a bit more this year because it is Senior year. Supposedly, it’s the most fun year of all since you have a free excuse for going out and having fun, but I don’t think my parents are taking that excuse. You want to go out in that condition? You’re better off studying for the SATs or writing those college essays you complain about so much. Stern look. =.=
I guess some things will always be the same. Whether it’s Halloween or not, there’s no difference~ At least I had some chocolate in the afternoon. Mmmm.. white chocolate. Crunchy cookie bits… :3 I still remember kindergarten when I dressed up as some Nickelodeon character [whose name I forgot]. His [or her] hair was orange and I was still super small so I got a lot of candy. I poured the whole bucket into a secret drawer and ate it slowly for the rest of the year. Fun times.
Well, if I ever have kids, I hope they would have the cutesiness to share some with me. For now, I’m stuck with just looking.
My aunt came back to visit from Taiwan, and brought back these really wonderful and tasty pineapple cakes. The name of the company: 85 degrees Cafe. How classy. It’s very famous in Taiwan and people wait months for orders to arrive. [I feel slightly honored :3 ] Alright, alright… I know it’s retarded to take pictures of a cookie box, but seriously. Just the look of the box makes me want to eat it. All shiny and glittery. Sigh– food these days satisfy both your mouth and your eyes. I swear we are getting spoiled.
Just go ahead and tell me you don’t believe in judging food by its cover
A couple days ago, my dad brought home a little purse-like baggie and gave it to me. Apparently, it’s from an old family friend that had seen me when I was just a baby. I feel slightly ashamed that I do not remember her, but then again, can I help it? Here’s a picture of my first souvenirs from Greece!
The designs are really intricate, and give the purse a cool texture.
I love the fishie though the fact that this is a bar of soap… Oh well. :]
This is a continuation of my last post on Chinese Paladin 3, I decided to throw a mv into the mix. The music video is dedicated to the couple whose story I had detailed before, and although it may be slightly confusing since the plot line is not clear in the video, I hoped this can let you appreciate it more. :]
The song for the video is also super awesome, and I have left a translation below
把昨天都作廢 現在你在我眼前
I want to throw everything from yesterday out and start anew– You are now before me
我想愛 請給我機會
I want to love you, please give me the opportunity
如果我錯了也承擔 認定你就是答案
If I was wrong in the past, I will help bear the burden. I know you are the answer.
我不怕誰嘲笑我極端
I am not afraid of others accusing me as dramatic.
相信自己的直覺
I want to trust in my instincts
頑固的人不喊累
People firm in their beliefs will never tire
愛上你 我不撤退
Falling in love with you, I know I will not back away
我說過 我不閃躲 我非要這麼做
I said before, I wont hide away from my fears.
This is something I have to do
講不聽也偏要愛 更努力愛 讓你明白
My ideals wont change and I will continue pursuing my beliefs,
loving even more, hoping you will understand.
沒有別條路能走 你決定要不要陪我
There are no other roads to take. Will you make the decision?
講不聽偏愛 靠我感覺愛
My ideals wont change and I will continue pursuing my love,
等你的依賴 對你偏愛
Waiting for your reliance, my love for you wont change
痛也很愉快
Even if it’s painful, I am happy
~
Today, I learned a very important lesson–and that is to not procrastinate when you know about the consequences. Well, to do that for everything is difficult, but one thing specifically to watch out for is when you become [if you are not one] a senior and ordering things for graduation comes around. So today was the “last day” to turn in money for cap and gown orders, well, the last day without a fine. I became kind of suspicious whether or not the people just took forever so they could fine more people, but anywayy that’s my own opinion.
So I dashed out of Ceramics today within 15 seconds of the FIRST bell, and found myself squished in a massive line that stood for literally the entire lunch period. I wanted to be nice and stand quietly waiting for my turn, but as I watched people shove in the side next to me just out of nowhere after I had been standing for ten minutes kinda got me annoyed. It was so incredibly retarded, I cannot even begin to describe it. People pushed, others shoved, some cursed, many cut. I was hungry and seriously getting frustrated because the line simply was not moving.
The only reason I got to the table to turn in my money before the lunch bell rang was because I was mean enough [or practical enough] to start squirming to the front whenever someone moved. Seriously, it really frustrated me because the process was just so inefficient and retarded. Sigh. The line was still really long after I had paid. – -X
Well, moral of the story is to turn in your orders the day before, because seriously, it will save you a heck load of time and money. :]
In the past couple weeks, after my October SATs, I was very stressed and in my distress, bumped into the sequel to one of my favorite Dramas [adapted from a game]. It was… irresistible. :] The producers of this drama are known for creating very touching love stories and relationships that guide the story along, and I fell into another insane life that was not my own. But I do not regret it. I realized after every heart wrenching experience, you grow a little more. Watching this drama and analyzing the relationships in there was very intriguing for me, and let me understand more about myself. Overall, it was a rocky tear jerking ride, but I feel like I have grown from watching it.
The song I placed in the beginning is one of my favorite in the drama, and fits the theme of struggling between love and responsibility. It is fit mostly with the relationship between a couple that met 200 years before the story actually takes place. The girl is the descendent of a goddess, and thus cannot die from natural aging. The guy is training to be a priest, and they meet when the man goes with his religious group into a city as guests.
He meets the girl, and their relationship is innocent and beautiful. At the end of his visit, however, he has to leave. The girl is crushed, but refuses to let the relationship die. The man promises that if after 3 years, she still wants to marry him, then he will stop being a priest and marry her.
He is the most prospective of the group, and his elders hope for him to succeed them as head priest. After three years pass, the man wants to go and keep his promise. His elders lie to him, though, and tell him the girl is dead. He feels disillusioned about the world and accepts his fate. After he attains a higher position in his cultivation, one day sees her again. She has waited for him every day for three years, and touched by her persistence, he runs away with her. Chased by his elders, the two end up before a cliff. There was a legend from before that if two lovers are meant to be together, the clouds would gather. As they knelt there, the clouds dissipated. [Meaning that they shouldn't] Refusing to let their fate be dictated by others, however, the two jump off the cliff. The man dies, but the girl survives because she isn’t human.
100 years later, the man is reincarnated and becomes another priest. The girl retains her beauty and age, but has never forgotten her love for him. Embittered by the pain of waiting one hundred years, she finds him again and goads him. Although he is the head priest and has lost all of his memories of his past life, he still loves her instinctively. To force him and see if he still loves her, the girl flirts with other men, drinking with them. Unable to see her hurt herself, the priest sacrifices his promise not to drink and drinks the liquor for her (taboo back then).
Eventually, he leaves being a priest again and sacrifices his whole career before him to marry her. The village shuns them (because you don’t just quit being a priest), but he ignores them all in the name of love. On their wedding night, however, as she is sleeping, the priest hears her saying the name of another man.
Angry and feeling betrayed, he does not know that the name she is saying is his old name in his past life. In a flurry of misunderstanding, they separate. The girl is hurt after he abandons her, but does not want to explain about their past and so things go on until her old country is attacked and she is about to be executed. She could have easily escaped, but since she feels her life lying in ruins around her, wants to die. That is when the priest jumps out amidst the crowd to save her. She keeps telling him to leave and that death is her choice, but he will not, until he dies protecting her. The words on his lips as he died were: 你心裏面還有誰？Who else do you have in your heart?
He is reincarnated a third time, a priest again. And she has waited for him 200 years. This is now the present. In the beginning, she does not want to interfere with his life, but when she sees in a vision that he is seriously hurt, she jumps out to save him. He does not remember her, but she cannot tear herself away. Their relationship develops, until he finally regains his memories. He is now forced to make a decision. Knowing that he had failed in the past because of love, the decision is put before him again.
He falls in love a third time, and it seemed the cycle of life, love and death would repeat when the girl finally decides to let him go. Even though they love each other, she knows he has his responsibility. He is not quite willing to give up the relationship, but the girl says that: “If you love a person, you would want them to achieve their ideals, and not hold them back because of your selfishness. True love is learning to let go.”
She brings him to the lake where all emotional attachment could be washed away after drinking the water. Not wanting to take away his dreams a third time, she forces them both to drink. In the beginning, he tells her he does not want to let go of his beautiful memories because it would be the same as committing suicide, but when he sees her drink, he does too. As they walk away from each other for the last time, it is revealed that the girl had never touched the water. As the man walks away, he spits out the water as well. [neither knowing about the other]
They both hold on to their memories because no matter how painful it is to remember, nothing is worse than completely forgetting. [Really felt a lot here] What made me like this so much more than other films is that their love is correct in the end. Although I am not one to judge a person’s love, if they had continued their relationship, the priest would have failed again and needed to continue reincarnation. Letting go was necessary for both of them, and even though it was painful, it was necessary.
真愛就是讓對方了解他們的理想，就是放手。
True love is giving the other freedom to achieve their goals– True love is letting go.
I was assigned to do a cartoon for the Fair Childs Challenge by Ms. Van Thiel, and I finally got a taste of how it feels to be forced to do something in which you have no idea how to do it, have to keep trying anyway, and keep failing miserably. In the first place, I felt very aggravated to have to continue doing this cartoon because other people have already submitted perfectly good cartoons. I do not understand why she needs to make me lose my time and sleep to compete with the other cartoons when clearly, I have to spend a crap load of time if I want to be chosen. [sorry, i'm just ranting away here]
I had a good reflection today, and after looking back on my past couple weeks, just realized how dismal and behind I am right now. I need to do my college apps, [it is my future you know], I need to hurry up and get well so I can run again, I need to study SATs because i’m starting to get a sickening feeling of foreboding, I need to make environmental club better, I need to talk more with my cabinet, I need to do so many things… Sigh. Is it right to say I feel like I’m failing life right now? When I get frustrated or irritated lately, my chest feels really stuffy, and I feel like I’m getting carsick. I really just want to refresh myself of everything and start anew. I want to know what is going on around me, I want to become a better friend and live my life! Blegh. I’m sorry, I meant to put something substantial up, but I managed to fail and turn this into another rant-a-thon. Hopefully things will get better.
